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"3 Gifts that are Plan B's"

Lately I feel like I'm on plan C or D, maybe even E, but certainly not back at B! I keep thinking, "this time I've got it right, this time I'm following God's will for my life." But then He throws me another curveball. I've really been wrestling a lot lately with God and His plans for me, but one thing I have to remember, is that this is not His plan D or E, He knows what He's doing even though I may not. Although its been difficult, God is still faithful to show me glimpses into His big picture, to remind me that He's got me right where He wants me.
That was a hard paragraph to write, hard truths to swallow right in this moment. Sometimes, I'd really like to take the steering wheel, but we all know how that would turn out!

"3 Plan B's:
1.) My job caring for tiny baby Kate. While there are downsides to every job, I really do love mine! I get to spend my days meeting the needs a round, warm, cuddly, soft baby girl, and she rewards me with smiles, giggles, and hugs. I have a very strong desire to be a mom, and while I don't yet have the privilege of caring for my own children, it's a blessing to care for Kate.

2.) My new home venture. I am currently in the process of buying my friends condo. While right now, being in the midst of a loan application is not so fun, the opportunity to own my own place is very exciting! God so clearly brought this opportunity to me, He brought it to my attention the day I was about to sign a lease on another apartment! Exciting!

3.) I was prepared to offer thanks for my singleness right now, but lately that's been the joy I've been fighting hardest for and I'm not quite there yet, working on it, by the power of the Holy Spirit.
But what I will offer thanks for is the fact that I'm still living in Indiana. With every opportunity for fellowship with family and friends, I thank God that I am here to be a part of it. I'm not sure how I would've handled being so far away, given recent occurrences, and every time I see a picture of my sweet nephew, I'm so thankful he's only 2 hours away.
God has me right where he wants me.