Some thoughts

Got some thoughts rolling around in my head so I thought I would share them:

What are we hear for? Do you ever wrestle with that question? In this the year 2011, we have so many distractions, responsibilities, events to fill our calender, people to catch up with, and social sites to update, that we often lack the time to ask such important questions. Often times I'm so busy trying to make sure everything in my life is just the way I want it to be I forget that it's not about me at all! God didn't put me on this earth to live a happy worry-free life! NO! He put me here to serve Him and bring Him glory! ALL the days of my life!

Lately I've been struggling with loneliness, a selfish loneliness. I say selfish because I have no reason to be lonely, but it's easier to be lonely than it is to work to not be so. But in my selfish loneliness,  my sweet Savior is always there reminding me that He loves me and that's all that matters! 

Adoption, I can't blog without mentioning this! I am so ready to adopt! God is definitely teaching me patience, and also how to pray for children that I have never met. He's got big plans, I just have to wait and see what they are! 

Another lesson God has been teaching me is how to forgive, truly forgive. This is a lesson I thought I had learned long ago when I was little, but oh no! There is much more to forgiveness than I had ever realized. He's teaching me and helping me to break free from the bondage that the lack of forgiveness brings. 

That's all for now, I'm gonna try and write every Monday night, stay tuned:)

Overwhelmed

I am overwhelmed with the desire to adopt children! Sometimes it's a little unbearable! I read the statistics, hear the stories, see the pictures, I can't handle it!

But I was reminded today that God is sovereign and I must wait....

I am so thankful to God for giving me such a clear burden and calling, I know that He has big plans for me in this area, I just don't know what they are yet! But I am beyond excited to find out!

In the mean time I'm doing what I can.... praying for my future kids that may be alive somewhere over the ocean right now! I'm also hoping to become a counselor for life centers to encourage scared young mothers, very excited for what God has for me there.

Please pray for the 163 million orphans of the world! And ask God to show you if your children are waiting to be adopted!

thanks for reading.

Broken

Well this blog is going to be about as opposite as it could be from my previous posts! However, I am the blogger, so I get to say what I want and this is what I want to say....

My heart is broken for the orpans in this world. We all seek to have our hearts break for what breaks God's heart.... well I think He has been in the process of breaking my heart for orphans for a while now and this weekend He finished that work. I am broken. There are millions of children with no mom or dad and 30 thousand of them die every day as a result. When I was hearing these statistics, seeing pictures, and hearing stories, I couldn't help but think of the kids I care for on a daily basis, how privileged they are! They have every physical need met, and so much more importantly, they are loved and cared for by two parents! Wow! I have never awed at what a blessing that is! How I have taken it for granted in my life and the lives of others! But when I took the time to think about and cry about the children who do not have that privilege... wow, we are blessed!
So now what!? What do you do with a broken heart!? Well I don't really know! But I do know that my loving God, who was willing to break my heart for these children, will show me what to do about it! Right now I am going to be praying, and by God's will I will hopefully get to go to Africa later this year and minister to these sweet babies! And I hope and pray with all my heart that one day I will be able to adopt a child of my own, and I pray that God will bless me with more than one!

But right now I am going to pray for these precious lives and thank God for blessing me how He has! I am so excited to see where He takes me from here!

Thanks for reading!

Stay tuned....